Lessons

Phil & I have been in a funk lately. I go to work fairly enthusiastically, (maybe, sometimes but not always) and Phil stays home tirelessly looking for jobs, applying to jobs and honing his coding skills in preparation for a new job. I come home, tired and try to muster up dinner. More often than naught we both retire to our respective computers and waste time (mainly me, since Phil is super productive with his time, see above) wallowing in our sorrows.

Frustration and depression have been not so welcome visitors in our home of late due to our unemployment status and my persistent emptiness. I mentioned to Phil the other night that I feel like we are not progressing, not working towards anything. He replied, "That's because we're not." We are at a stale mate, treading water in this vast sea of life. We have had a few waves crash down on us and perhaps we are not as strong swimmers as we thought, at least for the moment. (Alright, enough with the lame analogy).

Today in church we had wonderful speakers on the topics of faith. And I was reminded of a few things. I know that things will become better for us. I know that I need to follow the simple commandments that are required of us, how can I receive blessings if I am not ready and deserving? Those waves or trials that come are meant to teach us something, make us stronger as we persevere and find solutions. Obviously I am needing to learn something, I am going to have to try harder to find the answer, listen more intently. It can always be worse and truthfully we are doing pretty well with just a few minor setbacks (that are totally consuming and devastating at the moment) just a bit of sarcasm there with a whole lot of truth.